Beloved,
I woke this morning at dawn as I always do, greeting a dark sky and an obscured Venus determined to shine through a dense haze. Inside my own dark space I tended the fire, the first light of fire on this Winter Solstice day birthed in my hearth, my dear companion during the winter days.
With the golden glow bringing in light and warmth to my still home, I sat down to begin an hour long meditation and fell into a trance filled with sacred vibrations. Deep into this state a divine force opened my eyes suddenly, and before me I saw the light in the sky had increased quite a bit since I’d began the meditation. It was sure to be a shrouded sunrise due to gray cloud cover.
But the gift I saw in the moment my eyes opened was in the clouds themselves: Deep streaks of vibrant pink underpainting the clouds close to the horizon. The coming sun making its mark on the cloudy morning delivered in this way, bringing its radiance into the world on the day with the shortest amount of sunshine of the year wrapped up in pink clouds. It did not last long, and sure enough the sunrise itself was not to be seen.
The vibrant pink reminded me of the ever-giving love of this Divine light of our Sun, this light that shines always, and the magnificence of this loving light when it is determined to shine through no matter the obstacles. It was because of the obstacles of the clouds that the gift of the pink was given. The clouds magnified the radiance of the Sun and its ability to shine through.
This moment of bearing witness to the pink light of love also reminded me of you.
I wish we were face to face, and that I could look you in the eyes to express the truth of my love for you. May you receive this love through these words here, may they bring you exactly what you need in this moment.
I want you to know on this day that the Sun stands Still that it is you who shines the light always. No matter the clouds that cover the sky or how short the days may be, that just like the Sun, you are Divine Light that radiates Love in every moment.
Love is the truth of who we are. There is no losing love, there is no fighting for love, there is no holding on to love, there is no searching for love. You are the love. You may have forgotten this, but you are never separate from this. Love does not hurt. It is the belief that we are separate from that which we are that hurts. The moment that you remember the truth of who you are in the midst of pain and suffering is the brilliant pink that shines in a cloudy sky, even if just for a moment.
You may not recognize or believe that you are this Love, this Divine Light. But I see this in you and I love you for the Light you are in this world whether or not you see it for yourself.
I am sorry if I haven’t clearly communicated this love for you before now. I am sorry if I have not let you know that you are a brilliant light in my heart, and that I see the Divine in you. I am sorry if the brilliance of your light has rendered me unable to articulate my love for you before now. But it has always been there, and it only continues to grow.
Are you resisting what it is I see in you? Does it trigger you? Why does this Love scare you, why does it upset you, why does it make you angry? Ask yourself these questions, and listen. Listen to your triggers, and know they are leading you somewhere important and true. They take you on a journey to knowing your truth.
It is because of you that my heart has been cracked open to a greater expanse of Love than I’ve experienced yet. I have come into a profound place of compassion as I see the places and spaces in which you’ve forgotten the Love that you are. You have taught me how to be Love more and I thank you for this. I am learning that there truly is no end to the expansion of Love.
I surrender to Love and all of its manifestations. I embrace you for all you ever have been, all you presently are, and all you ever will be. I see the Divine perfection of you in this moment and all of the moments.
On this day that the Sun stands Still, know that Love is moving and pulsing and vibrating within every cell of your being always. Know that when you open your heart that this Love expands and grows and radiates because that’s what it’s meant to do. For this is our true nature, this is who we are. This is who you are.
The awakening to this Love is what brings true healing to your soul and what brings healing to this planet. May we embrace one another in this awakened Love, may our Love radiate throughout the world and bless all beings. May you see that awakening to the Love you are becomes a gift for All That Is.
Will you see this and read this and know each word was written for you, Beloved? I rest in my heart’s knowing that the loving transmission of this letter will bless you whether you read all of these words, one word or none.
May you remember that you are the radiant light of the Divine on the darkest night of the year. May the darkness enable you to see your brilliant light and remember who you are.
As the days moving forward gently begin lengthening and we welcome back the Sun, may you see the Sun as a reminder for the light that is always within you. May you see the Sun as a reflection of your true Divine potential. May you spend this sacred time of release letting go of any beliefs keep you separate from this knowing.
On this Winter Solstice, may you be rebirthed into the knowing of the Light you are and always will be.
I see you, I feel you, I reflect you.
I love you,
Angela