Beloved,
Love is receiving an extra amount of attention today for Valentine's Day, and if you are like me, you know that really this day is no different from any other day. Love is ever-present and abundant and worthy of celebration and appreciation daily. Still, it is beautiful to have a calendar-marked day that generates a boost of collective focus on this ever-pulsing presence of Love.
If you know me, you know I love Love. I embody Love, I am Love. Love for myself is the foundation for my daily life and self-care practices. Self-Love is the core of my work and offerings for others that comes from years of devoting myself to inner work and my journey of awakening. Every aspect of my healing and expansion becomes a gift not only for myself, but those around me. In this letter, I offer a gift to you of what I feel to be a foundational stone for Self-Love.
About five years ago, I was in a deep fasting state alone in my desert home on a hot summer day. I was reclined on my couch, staring at the ceiling, sweating and contemplating matters of the heart. Someone from my past had mildly resurfaced and reactivated feelings of heartache that I had believed were healed, completed and behind me. As I struggled with the surprising emotions surfacing that seemed out of proportion for the present circumstances, I asked myself why would someone I believed I was ‘over’ activate so much in my heart? Why was I feeling so much over someone who I now saw so clearly as one who was not in alignment for me, not someone I cared to spend time with any longer? Hadn’t I done the work, learned the lessons already? What more is there to heal?